Does going against western propaganda ever make you feel like you're going insane sometimes?

So I should preface this by saying I come from an anarchist-leaning background, but over the last few weeks I've been trying to become more critical of believing everything western media says, and have been trying to listen more to the ML perspective. As a result I feel like an insane person for going against common narratives. Even on relatively left subs like /r/ChapoTrapHouse and /r/socialism people seem to have the same talking points about the USSR, China, and DPRK that liberals do. The narrative people have towards "tankies" makes me feel on par with an anti-vaxxer or a holocaust denialist with how intensely aggressive people are towards people on this sub.Not to mention that I feel like my entire view of reliable media/sources is being challenged. I've never felt the need to distinguish between bourgeois academia and socialist academia. Plus it doesn't help that many academics who go against the western narrative get heavily criticized as "revisionist history". Which causes me to wonder whether they're being criticized for being unprofessional in their research, or if they're just getting slandered to continue the anti-communist narrative.It's also hard to break away from the idea that all news sources that originate from countires like China or DPRK are all just propaganda and can't be trusted. The disconnect with the opinions of everyone around me are really clashing with the debunking threads I read here and on /r/communism101 and it's causing me to feel like some unhinged conspiracy theorist.Anyway, just wanted to get that off my chest. It just feels pretty isolating to feel outside the bubble I guess. via /r/communism https://ift.tt/2vKJlKX