Serial Monogamist

Hiiii I'm a newbie to the group but guess whaaaat....I'm what I like to call bipansexual panbisexual which ever you prefer haha.

Lil about me...I knew I liked other girls a lot when I was about 5 or 6....from ages 6-9 (ha) us girls "experimented" a bit. I had a lot of full on sex with one girl in particular. She never speaks of it to this day. I mean we spent all of elementary school and into middle school a little having fun fun fun sleep overs. Haha. And then she turned away from that and dated guys so maybe it was just a phase for her. Who knows. So when I was 9 I thought for sure that I was a lesbian. I was torn up inside i didn't know what to do or tell and i was scared of the reaction of school kids etc...I remember almost telling my mom but instead I cried by myself and sulked around.

I didn't know about any other sexuality beside gay or straight. Pan wasn't talked about at all at that point. I didn't even know what bi sexual was. Then I figured it out bc everyone I knew told me I was bi before I realized it. I shoved that shit down for a while. Dated only guys. I have actually only dated guys just happened that way.

Current partner of 5 years is a straight male. He gets intimidated at times bc he thinks he's competing with the whole world since there are "more options" but he tries to be and is as open as he can be.

I now do not remember where I was going with this post lol but feel free to chime in and share your thoughts, feelings, experiences etc...

Submitted May 12, 2020 at 07:05PM by athendite12 https://ift.tt/2YXHBtH