The world denied me my tribe! Y'all are making the same jokes as me, wearing the same ensembles i wear (in my mind) and getting to do it in your twenties!! ;( Love u guys! You better not take it for granted. Because I'm 41, and this was my experience: No one accepted me in my twenties. They told me i was 'fetishising' queer people (both gay and straight told me this). I said "but I'm queer how can that be?" They said but then you're a lesbian. I said "no, because i'm bi (well was bi before realizing what I'm telling now). So how would i label myself lesbian? And wait how would that somehow be less appropriating than saying i feel love and attraction to all gender expressions!?" 'Well because you're a girl.' -"Okay so we're still denying bi people are legitimate. So even if i continue on that thread it still goes like this: but I'm a girl who is a human who feels that societies terms of womanhood are Not Enough; and i also feel personally really awkward saying my gender should dictate anything in my life.. much less placing that on others!" - 'Okay so you are bitter straight female who is just confused and wishes you were a male'. Ohmyfreakin'god okay fine. And I'm done. Thanks not thanks. .... So what did i do? I enjoyed some, but i never dated a woman (much less any other scenarios. Except self denying bi guys who were in the same scenario as me, not Living their Truth). Very sad for me now. But i didn't fully realize then. I guess it hurt too bad, being the person who came out to my mom at 13 - to then get treated like this within my own community. It was scary. And something i was in shock about. I didn't want to get my real self shattered. So I chose not to fight. I chose to be silent and give in and let the years pass me by. Lying to myself i wouldn't regret it and being scared. ~so please don't do like I did. ~Love and Peace you guys
Submitted July 21, 2020 at 01:20AM by mystery675 https://ift.tt/3hm73zb
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