My relationship with my mom( Rant😞)

Pronouns : She/they. I came out to my mom last year about being pansexual and she basically told me she would never reject me.But she’s sad bc for her ,happiness is having a husband and children.The fact that to her , in other for me to be happy i need to want the same things as her in life really breaks my heart.She also thinks that being pan/bi is being promiscuous ( There’s nothing wrong with doing what you want your body but saying that bi/pan = being promiscuous literally makes no sense). She also heavily implied that if i eventually end up with a man she’ll be happy and that she hopes that im just confused.We talked about it today again and she told me how disappointed she was when i told her and that she felt like everything i was saying came from “the devil “.She also mentioned the fact that she’s scared of not having grandkids ( im not her only child btw , i have 3 siblings ) , i told her no matter who i end up with i can choose to have kids or not and thats my business.Oh , i forgot to mention that the idea of getting artificial insemination in other to have kids is disgusting to her, bc its just like “ buying a child”.She also doesn’t like the idea of me adopting bc “ thats not my real child”.I told her a lot of her takes sounded really selfish and that i was hurt but she thinks her feelings are more valid than mine.Right now , i just feel really sad, i feel very pressured to be something im not just for other ppl’s happiness and it hurts.I took such a long time to finally accept myself for who i am.Im very scared to engage in serious relationships with girls bc of that.And i think ive been forcing myself a lot to want men ( i mean a lot more than how i normally do) just to make everyone happy.My mom thinks that not disowning me / telling me to leave her house is enough, but i wanted true and genuine support from someone who made it seem like she was open minded.I feel like crying honestly.All my friends are straight so they cannot understand , so i came here to rant.😞

Submitted July 07, 2020 at 05:24PM by jezebelnana https://ift.tt/2Zax6TQ