i came out today

hi! let me start off by saying, i’m really bad at wording things so i’m sorry if this is difficult to understand. also i’m a stupid minor and on mobile so formatting is bad :p this post isn’t as long as it looks, most of it is just little sentences

people in this story:

P: my friend

T: my mom

L: my grandma

N: my dad

S: me

i found out i was pan about 8 months ago, and i wasn’t really too worried about coming out. when it happened, it happened.

now about three days ago, P tried to convince me to come out. i decided eh it wouldn’t hurt, my parents have brought me to literal pride parades so i didn’t really have anything to worry about except the fact i’m a nervous wreck. i didn’t want to straight up say that i was pan so i decided to just hint at it. so my ass decided to post a picture of a pan on facebook with no other context. L asked “does that pan have a nipple?” which caused T and N to start making nipple jokes aswell. it was actually pretty funny 😭 me and P were just like “well, i guess ya tried”

next day, i posted “why are pans hot?” with three NIPPLE-LESS pans mind you and my family just commented gifs. alright, well they obviously have no idea what pan means. i still found it funny though.

and today,, i was just like, FUCK IT. i asked P if i should just post “i’m pan u dummies” and she encouraged me, so i stared at the post for like 5 minutes then finally posted it and i was literally shaking.

L and N liked it but never commented. okay.. then when T saw it.. this happened.

T: you’re attracted to all 52 genders?

S: theres 52 genders? (i got nervous and played dumb, i’m aware there’s 52 genders lol)

T: yeah look that shit up

S: oh damn

S: due to personal reasons, i will be passing away

then she like stopped replying for 10 minutes and i got a pop up saying she was on instagram bc our phones are connected

S: GET OFF OF INSTAGRAM

P: I WILL ANAL HER

P: SPAM

P: I MEANT SPAM

S: HAHHAHAHAHAHA

T: anal?? 😭😭😂😂

S: that’s all you wanna talk about rn?? you damn near gave me a heart attack. do you like not believe there’s 52 genders or smthn (again another dumb thing i said, you have to understand i’m an idiot who gets anxiety and paranoid over everything)

T: i’m open to everything, you sketchy bitch

P: no need to be aggressive love

at this point i’m like fuck this is going worse than i thought so i got up in my bed and cuddled with my cat for like an hour and when i woke up i had i migraine and i had to go downstairs to get my medicine. i was worried but i slowly went downstairs and told T i had a migraine.

T: your sumatriptan is on the counter. PANSEXUAL!!

i grabbed it and ran upstairs and (POSSIBLE TW) yelled “killing myself!” jokingly.

N: why are you killing yourself?

T: HEY DID YOU KNOW SHES PANSEXUAL???”

N: what does that mean?

T: inaudible

T proceeds to chase me up the stairs and forced me to lay on the floor with her

T: what does your post mean??

S: you already guessed it

T: is that why you’re acting so weird?

S: hides face yeah..

T: ohh! so you don’t really care about gender?

S: yeah!

T: so do you have a crush on P??

S: NOO (i dont lol, and T is REALLY persistent about it because she’s convinced that i do lmao)

T: does P have a crush on you?

S: NOO

T: oh, ok! walks away

so now i’m in the shower. typing this. first thing i did was message P who knew i was worried, and she said “HAHAHAHAHA WHY IS SHE BEING SO PUSHY” and we talked about it for a minute. all is well! i just hope T doesn’t bring it up every two seconds lmao. also L still doesn’t know i’m pan so idk how to go about that

Submitted August 17, 2020 at 06:14PM by LazerCrystalx https://ift.tt/2CyYYbw